by William Lee Rand
I'd been coming to Hana for several years to teach classes and I'd often go for walks down the road along the ocean. As I'd walk along I'd often look up at the mountains and at the homes peeking out here and there through the trees and vegetation. I'd fantasize about what it must be like to live up there; the amazing view they must have of the coastline and the ocean and the beautiful sun and moon rises they must experience. And I'd think about the people who live there and the affect living there must have on their state of mind. How peaceful it must be.
I'd also think about how I'd like to have a place like that. A place to relax, a place to teach classes and by living there become part of the community of people who are as mellow and relaxed and beautiful as the sky the land and the sea.
But I thought that if it ever happened, it would be something that happened a long time in the future. I didn't know how I'd afford a place like that and beside, deep inside, I didn't really feel ready, or even worthy to accept something that nurturing and wonderful into my life.
Then recently I began to realize that I'd been saving my money to retire and doing so in a way that was kind of fearful, thinking that I had to have enough so I didn't have to work. And as I let go of the fear, I began to see that there was no need for me to retire and in fact I decided I wasn't going to retire. When I accepted this, I realized that I just might have enough to get a place in the land I loved. But still, I didn't feel worthy.
Then one day I was walking down the same road I'd walked down so many times before; the road that had the sea on one side and the mountains on the other. And as I rounded a bend, the mountains came into view along with the homes were up there. And there was one home, a home sitting up on the side of the mountain that was designed to take advantage of the view. It was round with windows all along the coastal side. And I had often thought about how smart the people must be to have built a home like that and imagined what a great view they must have.
But this time was different. Something very significant happened. As I came round the bend, a feeling came over me. It was an uplifting feeling and I could feel an energy flowing all around and this energy affected my entire being. It was nurturing and I felt my self esteem heal and a feeling came over me that said yes, I was worthy to own a house up there. This was a really good feeling and I felt complete and knew that I was being healed and given direction. It was time for me to begin looking for a home in Hana.
I looked at a few homes but had to leave; but returned in a few months to look in earnest. I was staying in a house with a startlingly beautiful view and it was for sale, but already had a buyer. Then my real estate agent brought over a number of listings. One was the same round house I had seen from the road when I had the miraculous healing experience. I thought this an amazing stroke of luck. We went to look at the house and it also had a great web site. This was an absolutely amazing house and I really did want to buy it. In fact, I was extremely excited. So I prayed about it and was told that it was important not to try to manifest this house for myself. I was told to keep my energy out of it, and to turn it over to God. This was not the God as defined by traditional religion, but the God I had come to know through Reiki. The God I came to know on my own. When I became aware of this I also knew it was God who had healed my self esteem and that this was part of a greater plan. So, I let go of my desire and focused on allowing whatever outcome God had in mind to unfold. I accepted both outcomes. If God wanted me to own the home, I accepted it, or if God wanted me to not own the home, I accepted this too.
We made an offer and waited. Then we were told that there were two other offers higher than mine and both were paying cash. I felt it was over and that the house was gone. But I chose to remain in the state of allowing God’s will to be done – either way.
After I got back home in Michigan, my realtor called to say there was a chance. Then the first buyer backed out and I was told that because of my background, the owners preferred to sell to me.
I was ecstatic, but knowing that buying a house has many challenges, I maintained my openness to whatever outcome God had in mind. In the end, I received a wonderful gift.